different ways of thinking and knowing

Reflecting on today’s work day gives me a perfect example of different ways of thinking and knowing.  A coworker was showing me some very specific functions of our computer program that we use at work this morning. I could feel and see that he was surprised that I did not use some of the features we were reviewing. In my mind they were insignificant and unimportant. In his mind they were not. I believe he felt some type of superiority over others because of his technical knowledge. At the same time I was making value judgments about what I perceived as his lack of interpersonal skills. Neither one of us seemed to appreciate what the other was offering.

Who is to say what is more important or if that “more important” even exists? When we take time to reflect on what type of “thinking hat” we wear we can begin to see how that affects what we see, prioritize and experience and how others view us.  Reviewing Patterns of Thinking seems to remind us of this. The American model of “getting straight to the point” seems blunt, simple, aggressive and rude in comparison to other cultures.  Other cultures can seem repetitive, off topic, out of order in comparison to this form of communication and thinking.

The point is nobody should be caught up in value judgments believing one way of being, thinking, communicating is correct. What matters is that we continually reflect on our process and continually grow in appreciation and openness to the ways of others.

left and right brain discussion

 

It is important to understand our own strengths especially as we attempt to overcome obstacles. As we encounter these obstacles we balance the left and right brain. We use both critical and creative sides to solve problems, to get through our daily lives and to function in the world. We tap into the left brain to organize and the right brain for spontaneity.

Some of us excel or exist in one side more than the other. You know what I am talking about. You know the people who exist on one side of the brain all the time. There is the computer programmer who sounds like a robot, that is a left brainer and the mechanic who describes in detail each moving part of the motor, that is a left brainer. Then there is that far out hippy dreamer type, totally abstract, right brainer and the artist who relies on feelings and emotions to be creative, right brainer.  

Most of us exist somewhere in between or at least shift back and forth. As I create a list of my left and right brain strengths I begin to realize that I may be operating more within the mush in between the two. I have always recognized, with the help of others, my creative or right brain. I am a visual person, emotional, looking to see the bigger picture, the abstract, the dream world and like to live life as it comes.

After further review however there are parts of me that live in the left side. Before I can begin the creative process in anything I do I always straighten up, and organize. I line things up and make order out of my messes. I organize by color, shape, size and whatever else. I like to break things down into parts when I get a bit overwhelmed, tackle small sections and go from there. I have a sock drawer and a place set my keys when I come into the house.

I think the important part of all this left/right brain business is becoming more aware of how we function, recognizing not only our own strengths but the strengths of others as we try to get the most out of our lives and our experiences on this earth.

Obstacles

 
I realize that the obstacles in my life are mostly self imposed and are not as worthy of complaint as others who have real barriers and obstacles. Many people have to get past serious traumatic experiences, racism, sexism, economic struggles, health issues and the list goes on and on. Here I am thinking of the obstacles in my life and I can’t even begin to feel sorry for myself…but somehow I do.

 No matter where we are in life though we seem to put up walls and barriers to our own success and self-actualization. I want to be a better person, more successful, harder working, more focused…but I let things get in my way. When I thought of what got in my way it became a little suffocating. I imaged a moat between my home and me, with no bridge, no boat, and no way to get across.

                        When I thought of how lazy I am, how it keeps me from accomplishments…I took a nap.

 When I thought of how much fun I like to have….I stopped my homework, party time.

 When I thought of my insecurities and fear…I avoided looking further.

 When I thought of how nice the sun would feel on my skin…I went for a hike.

 

The usefulness of understanding what gets in your way, of naming it and seeing it is that you can become aware of it and with awareness you can modify your behavior and make positive change. The Indigenous knowledge of naming your fears or obstacles makes sense. When you name it, you recognize it and then you can do something about it. It is self reflection and it is taking inventory of where you are and where you want to be. It does seem useful for oneself and within any helping profession.

My mind is a crazy flow of lava             

Hot from motion

No way to cool or be cool                                 

Cool is now gone

Heat of Sun warms my touch         

The bla bla speech of

Mr. Such and Such

Burns my soul

A drop of liquid fire rolls off my temple

As it hits the floor

No cool breeze to cushion burn

Nowhere to turn

Only heat

 

Exercise in letting the mind take me where it wants to go….not sure if I was really ready for that ride! Something that came up in my free writing exercise was some poetry which has been in my head forever. It is great to take some time and let out that creative side and express oneself. It does feel healthy.

Something that is apparent to me from this exercise is that I am insane….sssshhh don’t tell. I don’t think that I am alone though. My mind, just like others, is scrambling to make sense of this existence, to process experiences and emotions and make decisions. What came to my mind in the free writing exercise and in reflection after is how so many people’s thoughts are scattered by traumatic experiences, domestic violence, mental health issues and drug use. I have to constantly remind myself that people can make poor decisions and it is not for me to judge. It is for me to understand that their thought processes and decision making can often be in reaction to very difficult circumstances and situations. My mind is very busy and tangled up and that is with as many opportunities and comforts that I have been allowed. I can only image what a jumbled up mess it would be if I had experienced more challenges in life. The point I am trying to make to myself mostly, is that you can’t go around thinking, “What were you thinking!” You have to think to yourself, “What experiences has this person had to make them think this way?” Then maybe there is more understanding, compassion, patient and a place to begin to help. Am I making any sense?

 

 

                                  

We were asked to reflect on the subject of silence this week. (long pause) I think that somehow, somewhere I got it all mixed up. I began to think of silence as consent. I thought of silence as some type of weakness, like I couldn't stand up for myself or others if I wasn't flapping my lips in self defense or defense of others. If I didn't use my voice and articulate my thoughts to others I was not communicating my wants, needs and intentions. (longer pause)

I am that annoying guy in the elevator who can't deal with the silence and then I say something stupid about the weather. (pause for silence)

They say that a picture is worth a 1000 words but maybe, just maybe, silence is worth a whole heck of a lot more then that, like 10000 words wispered into the wind. Silence means you are listening. Silence means you are thinging. Silence means you are giving someone else a chance. I remember hearing in course work last semester that an effective leader is someone you don't even notice. I like that. (long pause)

Hopefully as life keeps moving faster and faster, as we are more exposed to created stimuli we will remember to find room for silence in our lives and in that silence hear what is actually happening within and around us.

I have always had a deep connection to the outdoors. The further out that I have gotten, the further in I have been able to dive.  My experience has been that asking the real questions within, the questions that matter seemed to have always taken place in nature. The longer the journey out, the more miles logged and the more time away, has always brought me closer to the person I want to be. Of course we have to come back and when we do we have more balance to be able to manage our own lives and to be in a helping position for others.

Last time I chimed in I was thinking I needed to participate in the MSW program more. What I was thinking that meant was more time in my books and on the keyboard. After further evaluation I don’t believe it is more time there but more balance. If time is not spent outdoors, recharging, then a deeper connection to the material and the program is not obtained. Of course this is for me personally and in continued understanding of myself and how I function best. So sometimes I have to get out to get into it!

Wilderness Therapy, not outdoor boot camp but, letting nature begin to help us heal is something that very much interests me. It is something that I also see as a problem for many individuals today. We have a major disconnect from the earth and the positive energy which should be received.  As I continue on my social work journey I would like to explore this concept further and evaluate my own life and connection with nature, in hopes that I can improve as a person who has an increased capacity for compassion for others.

While I was in San Francisco recently I encountered a group of youngsters with their counselors for the day. It was a weekend program which allowed the kids to get out of their neighborhood and explore different parts of the area. Just a simple trip to the beach seemed like a valuable excursion for the kids, getting them out of the neighborhood they rarely leave. It had me researching some of the programs available to adolescents today. I am currently doing a project on supportive services for teens transitioning out of juvenile detention and it seems that programs that have an outdoor component are more important than ever. Hopefully more research and energy will be put into the benefits of these types of programs.

No more "gone fishing"

Catching on and catching up!!!!!!!!

So as you may be able to guess from my title something that can sometimes get me down is my wonderful superpower. If I were a superhero, which of course I am not, my special superhero power would be the power to procrastinate. In my comic strip, which takes place in an online MSW program, I can sit back until the very last minute and come in and save the day. Save the day in this case, is to get my butt in gear and finish an assignment with 2 minutes to spare. Some super power.

 

So what am I going to do in order to combat my procrastination? First thought is to not worry about anything until it is due. After further consideration this is not going to work for me. So instead of “gone fishing,” I will continue to have to protect my study time, my social work dedication and my continued life balance. Sometimes I have to say NO to family and friends and say YES to homework.  It is a learning process and not only am I learning about the subject matter, I am also learning about my own personality and the way in which I operate.  

Something that I will hope to contribute to the DL community is a positive approach. I may not bring much to the table but overall I would consider myself a positive person who looks for solutions to problems and not more complaints. As we learn to provide information and options to clients from a strengths based perspective I want to continue to move in that direction.  

Hello fellow social work students, friends and neighbors.  As usual I am getting to all of you a bit later then I should. My journey on in the MSW program reminds me of The Little Engine that Could.  If I remember correctly there was butter on the tracks and it took that Little Engine some time to get going on down the tracks. That is sort of my personality. I just need to get going and then down the track I go. I think I can, I think I can.

I always wanted to be a social worker….no I didn’t.  However some part of me may have always wanted to be a social worker but did not know what that means. Maybe I am still figuring that out too. What I do know is I have always had within me some core beliefs and values that line up with a career in social work. On the playground I didn’t want to help pick on the new or different kid. I wanted to help and listen and generally cared about the well being of the people around me. Now days I am somewhat of a hippie communist wanting everyone to feel good and have their share. Social work just feels right.

In my current position working for Humboldt County Social Services as an Integrated Case Worker I have had the opportunity to work with and observe the great and meaningful work that Social Workers do. I have seen them make a difference and something inside of me always said, “I can do that and I would be good at it.” So here I am.  

The light at the end of the tunnel for this little engine that could is completing my MSW program at HSU. I am fortunate to be a participant in the TITLE IV E stipend program in Child Welfare Services. I will complete my internship with the county in Child Welfare and continue working in my current position until the program is complete. At that point I will work within CWS for a minimum of 2 years as a Social Worker to meet my stipend program obligation. Don’t tell anyone but I would have done it anyway, ha!

I want you all to know that I really feel blessed to be able to participate in this program with all of you and hope to be able to work with each of you in some capacity before this journey and part of our lives is through.